There are times when life just seems overwhelming.
We have to deal with bills, jobs, gas, food, health issues and relationships. It's an uphill struggle just to make it through the day. The nights are sometimes sleepless ones with worries that absolutely leave us terrified and shaking!
As we put one foot in front of the other we try to find a way to cope or just to try and make sense of why we are all on separate roads of discovery. We are all dealing with hardships.
Many years ago when Dad was working at the family business he found a huge beautiful moth that had died and he brought it home to me. I had never seen one like it. I kept it in my room for years. I have a specific memory of that moth and of Dad. Somehow, I always connected the two.
One night last year I was going through a trying time in my life. I was out at a Mexican Restaurant with a best friend. As we sat there talking and working through my problems, a huge moth just like the one Dad had given me landed on the window. His colorful wings were outstretched and he stayed right there. I was astonished! It was exactly the same type! What are the chances that this would happen? Now I've only seen two of these in my life. Back then when he gave it to me... and then!
As soon as I saw it, I felt Dad was with me. He had sent the moth as a sign that he was still watching over me. When I told my girlfriend, she said the hairs on her neck stood up and she felt it too. She had never seen one of these moths in her life. We watched in amazement as he stayed there on the window for a long time. I was comforted in this small way that I was not alone.
A few weeks ago, another huge moth came right to my house and stayed on either my front door wreath or beside the door frame. He would be here every morning and vanish during the day. Every night he came back and stayed till dawn. This went on over 2 weeks time.
Now what are the chances that the same moth keeps revisiting like a bird?
I have no idea. What was comforting was that there were many things I was going through and on top of that, my dog Chanel was in the hospital. It has been stressful every day.
Each night the moth continued his vigil. I was comforted each morning when I went to see if he was still there. He always was.
The day Chanel was released to come home for the weekend he hasn't been back.
Do I dare to think that the dangerous time has passed and things will be better?
Maybe all the prayers of the past week have helped her. I desperately want that to be true. Please keep Chanel in your prayers. I do condition updates on this blog post.
The moth comforts when I need to feel like Dad is still watching over me. He sends the moth to remind me that I am protected, loved and things will be alright if I stay positive.
Sometimes it's the little things that get you through your day.